As a younger man I embarked on a career as a performing artist with some degree of success.  I was particularly drawn to the areas of dance, physical theatre and disability  theatre. I found inspiration in working through perceived limitations towards expression and original works; the creation of something where before there was nothing. As my career accelerated I felt myself destabilising. Energetically it felt like I was losing myself, that I wasn’t there to begin with.  This lead to more than one period of breakdown.

I moved to Germany and began a process of exploration and healing. I studied body based techniques, mindfulness and  mediation practices, authentic movement and medicine work. It was not until I came across focusing that something clicked. Through focusing I found a way into myself, a way to familiarise myself with feeling, and a deeper understanding of who I am. To say I found myself has its own trite connotations, more practically I found a way to contact myself. To be with myself without distraction. To be myself.